Another month gone bye bye - bit of a long post sorry.

Well as same as before, great start and then stop.

Been running around in my head, why I keep doing this
Came up with some great reasons, (EXCUSSES)!!!! As to why.

1. - No point nothing will change anyway
2. - I am afraid that is I lose the weight I will not know how to dress right
3. - I will look worse as the excess skin gets worse if I keep losing any more
4. - I am happy this way now that I am healthy
5. - I am sick of giving up my time to train
6. - I want to enjoy my life now that I can
7. - I can’t find a balance of normal to obsessive so don’t worry about doing anything
8. - My hip hurts and will get worse
9. - There are people around me at home so I don’t want to put them out with my training and eating.
10. - Don’t like the fashion the plus size clothes look good this season.

I am sure I could keep going.

OK now one of the 12WBT pre season tasks was to find your EXCUESSES and smash them so here are my positive head replies.

1. - Things have changed and will continue to change and I just got to work around them and though the problems and enjoy the good things fully.
2. - OK well that is what I have friends for to tell me if I look silly, but I went shopping yesterday and I know that what I want to wear will look great when I have lost the weight, it looks good now and how much more fun will it be when I can just buy them. I had my colour chart done and it was great fun, and there are
services if I get really lost that can help me find what suits my new shape.
3. - ok yes this one has a tiny bit of truth in it, I have found that the skin is getting worse as I get closer to my goal, but it looks so much worse when I am not working out as I don’t have the toning to shape my body and it looks undefined, but when I am training there is shape and the skin is not as bad. It will look better when there are not extra layers of fat under it pushing it out as well. I will be getting some plastic work done in a year or so after I finish, and it’s pulled up as much as it will.
4. - Well now this is just funny, if I am happier why as I so damn down when I am not working out, and sitting around, yes it’s not all the time but I have found if I am not enjoying life now and that includes training and being able to push myself to do things I could never do before, after a few weeks I am so damn low, and I get on here and write great big long posts like this one..LOL
5. - Well yes it can get a bit repetitive, but this is my new life and I need to find ways to enjoy it, sometimes it’s just JFDI and other times if doing something new and exciting so that it does not feel like training but just having a blast. Need to look into to these ideas more, any hints leave a comment, and I will give it a go.
6. - Yes I do that is why I need to keep living my life, we have booked in to do a 3 hours sail on a tall ship and I want to climb the 33m main sail, well that was the goal when I booked it, now that I have stopped working out, I was saying to hubby last night, I don’t know if I could do it now!!!!!! WHAT where is the enjoying my life part if I can’t do the things I want to enjoy because I have been sitting on my butt for the last 3 weeks. I want to do extreme things (for me anyway) so I need to have the strength and stamina to do them, that is enjoying life.
7. - Well this is me in a nutshell, it’s all or nothing, if I can’t do something I just want do anything and that will make it ok, even typing that I realise how dumb that sounds so why does it make sense in my head when I do it. ? I was talking with hubby about this just last night, and his reply was, when you were doing it you where hanging around like minded people, who were talking about it as much as you where and you where all drawing energy off each other and fuelling each other on, and you where all happy doing that, then I stopped and now its obsessive, but it’s not its normal and it made you happy and its infectious as its gets other people around you wanting to enjoy life like they see you are. (Side note my hubby has now lost over 20kg and is running 6km every other day now)((And looking very sexy)).
8.- Yes my HIP this was a big stopper for me, but like I said above all or nothing, my hip falls into this group, if I can’t run, what’s the point of doing anything, Yes I know I should work around it, sports people do it all the time with worse damage that I got. But have I got off my butt and found out how to fix this properly NO, it was just the doctor said rest it and stop running so I did, is she a specialist in any area of training NO, so I am going to go to the running centre in Perth and talk to them, see their doc, I am going to try some Chinese natural methods and see if that helps as well as the anit inflames the doc gave me.
9. - Yes there are others living in the house, and not once have they tried to stop me, it’s me that stops me thinking about them and what they might I repeat might be thinking, and I been doing this for almost 2 years now so they are just happy to see a happy me enjoying my life.
10. - OMG really, I was so shocked when I said that to myself, yes the plus size fashions are a lot better now than before, but I don’t want to go back there.

So now that they are out of the way, what am I going to do.

THE PLAN

Back to basics.

Clean out house of food that I should not be eating.
Meal plan
Shop as per plan and no extra treats just in case of company etc.
No more treats at work, no more just a tiny bit will be fine.
15 weeks is the plan, I have 12 KG to go but this will allow for xmas, and a plato in there as well.
Be as "obsessive" as I need to be to achieve my goals, and enjoy life.

Training - 4 days a week will be running Yes running building up slowly and working with specialist for my hip. 1 day will be hill training.
The other training will be weights work 1 day a week, and body weight training 2 days a week. Including Swimming, cycling and endurance work.
1 weekend day a month will be a fun outdoor event, with hubby to enjoy what we are doing and still be working out.
MONDAY is my day off. I will do Super Sunday run training.

Goals / rewards - apart from weight loss

End week 5 - Run 7km - Sail boarding
End week 10 - Run 14km - Horse Riding
end week 15 - BE AT GOAL WEIGHT AND RUN A HALF MARATHON with hubby The Darlington half 19th March 11

I have found a 1/2 morathon training program so I will be following that for my weekly training, so I am not just doing it as guess work I have got the good information, I will so that a bit later on for all to see.

I found a great quote online while looking into the marathon stuff that I want to finish my blog today with.

"Now if you are going to win any battle you have to do one thing. You have to make the mind run the body. Never let the body tell the mind what to do. The body will always give up. It is always tired in the morning, noon, and night. But the body is never tired if the mind is not tired."
George S. Patton, U.S. Army General, 1912 Olympian